Friday, July 29, 2011


I've been discussing with my parents about my future planing, and they seems to agree with me this time. I think I'm taking a break from life for a year. I feel like walking and exploring the world, going out from the comfort zone I'm in and get to know people from all around. I'll be making the announcement about what I choose on the first day of Syawal. Hopefully, the new year that's gonna start for me ahead is much better and I'll be having no problems in accepting life. to the bitch that I hate so much now.. GO DIE~ you are just a useless piece of plastic that are afraid to face the world and BRAVA for keep on hating and having grudge for your family.

p/s : bitch keep on teeling everyone what I've done because one day you'll be HIT by KARMA bitch.


Having a massive HEADACHE in the middle of the night and my assignments is only half way done. I'm so loving it lahhh~

Thursday, July 28, 2011

Wednesday, July 27, 2011

aww.. looks like cupid had been playing around with my friends..


Tuesday, July 26, 2011

Remember, life's best lessons are learned at the worst times and from the worst mistakes

Ramadhan special

After a while that I've been dreaming about going out with my favourite idol, at last my dream will come true!!! The story begins like this, Yesterday like I posted on FB I was high with sugar and caffeine, so I didn't go to bed early. It was around 2 a.m in the morning and I was DAMN bored so I pick my phone up and makes prank calls, dhahaha~ (tak ada keje kan). Then this crazy idea came to me, why not I text Shahir. YES SHAHIR!!! so I text abang shahir in middle of the night without hoping anything. Then about 15 minutes later my phone vibrate, the I see there was an incoming message. I never thought it was from shahir and when I opened the message like I was screaming OMG!!! it's shahir, he replied. It has been such a long time since we last talk or sms. I know he has been busy lately with his life and I never expected he still remember me.

so we sms till around 4 a.m in the morning and he invited me to go out for 'Buka Puasa' with him this Ramadhan!! yEAH!!! I'll be meeting my abang soon.. ngeee~ so today I'm extra happy with a big juicy smile on my face!!! can't wait to meet him!!! *nanti I'll post our pictures.. huhuhu~

Till then sayangs xoxo...

Monte Carlo

Monte Carlo a carefree movie.. After almost a month I went to watch the movie only today I got the mood to write about it. But first let me rate it, I gave 4/5 Stars to the movie a big clap for Monte Carlo guys. errkk~ some of you might have been mistaken the Monte Carlo that I'm talking about with the old one right, don't be fooled by the tittle, the one I'm sharing today is Salena Gomez new movie that she acts with Leighton Meester and Katie Cassidy.

It's a sweet romantic and funny teenage love story that took place in Monte Carlo. This movie is about a young women, her uptight step sister and her best friend use their savings for a long anticipated dream trip to paris, which turns out to be a big disappointment. when they decide to take a break fromm their lousy tour and duck into the lobby of a luxury hotel, one of them is mistaken for a spoiled British heiress (Salena Gomez). Before they get the chance to reveal their true identities they are wrapped up in misadventures during a vacation to Monte Carlo instead.

To know what happens to this three beautiful ladie, you guys have to go and watch this movie!! I adore it so so so much... though it's a bit like lIzzie macguire movie and the cheeta girls, but yet Monte Carlo has it own uniqueness that make it interesting!! so go watch!! like right now.. muahahah~

Till then all the hugs and kisses for you...

Monday, July 25, 2011

Don’t let your ears "witness" what your eyes 

didn't see and don't let your mouth speak what 

your heart doesn't feel.


Hye guys, hurmmm what to write ha? I just feel like writing something right now, but I've no idea what to share. I'm in the middle of solving my calculus assignments, errgggghhh~ after so long I haven't done any complicated figure! can you just imagine how hard it is... hahah~ but I'm trying to love the subject from now on ( I have too, even life is like math.. full of problems but there is always a way to solve it) :)

ahhhh~ let me share about a Friend that I miss so much in Kuantan.. she's actually the closest person to me and she has witness all the changes that I gone through in life. Nurul Nadia Ali Akhbar, a.k.a Nadia... I first meet her during my second week in Kuantan, thanks to Meliza (How is meliza now?). That time nadia was having lunch with her friends.

I really never expected that we gonna be such close friends, but Alhamdullilah she was the best friend that I ever had (and there are few others). Although some people are afraid to approach nadia, because some of them think that she was such a snob but I think they are just being judgemental. Never judge the book by the cover lah wehhh~ she is such a sweet and friendly person. Nadia and I usually have this kind of connections where we sometimes can read each other mind!! scary right!! but that is just us.... our friends always wonder what both of us are thinking at times.

Huurrmmmm.. how I miss her so much now. I'm really sorry nadia about what had happened but I promise you that I'll be better person and someone that will achieve his dreams one day ( cehhh~ ayat poyo)! I just can't wait to meet her this Ramadhan!! YEAHHH!!! nak lepas rindu kacau nadia!! :D :D

I got to go now, calculus is calling me..
TTYL lovelies..
Every saint has a past and every sinner has a future.

Didn't sleep for the night

hahahaha.. It's 5 in the morning and I'm still not a sleep yet. It feels like something is wrong with my body physically and emotionally. I'm not feeling to well but yet I'm not that sick, I'm not happy and but I'm also not that sad. I just can't really define what I'm feeling right now. Luckily my class is at 10 tomorrow, but for sure that I'm gonna be so sleepy the whole day.. ahhhhh~ who cares about me anymore, I've no one that cares about me in the class, hurrmmm how I miss my old classmates now.

uwwww.. by the way, yesterday an old friend of mine added me on one of this social networks.. at first I thought of not approving the request but then I consulted with one of my best friend about the situation, and he suggested me to just approve the request. So I did approved the request, but hell she was not trying to patch things up!!! she was acting as if there is nothing wrong with her and all the fault came from me... SHIT right.. ahhh~ what ever, I never really care about her anymore.

Supposedly my schedule should be pack for the day, classes should start at 8 but I got an assumption for my English class. Dean gave me the permission to be excuse from class from now on. fun right!! :D so from now on I'm officially not going for English anymore... but yet my English need to be polish up so that I'll be prepared for my MUET next year.

GTG now, getting ready to send my cousin to school this morning,
this remind me of getting my driving licence done before the end of this year...
hopefully everything will be okay today...
later my loves..

Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu,
Aku yang rentan karena,
Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu,
yang mampu menyanjungku.

Selama mata terbuka,
Sampai jantung tak berdetak,
Selama itu pun,
Aku mampu megenangmu.

kutemukan hidupku,
Kau lah cinta sejati.


Bila yang tertulis untukku,
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu,
kan kujjadikan kau kenangan,
Yang terindah dalam hidupku,
Namun takkan mudah bagiku,

Meninggalkan jejak hidupku,
yang tlah terukir abadi,
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah.

I've been listening to this song a lot lately...

Sunday, July 24, 2011


Okay it has been quite sometimes since my last entry. Trying to make postings everyday but it seems that wouldn't happen for now. Life has been a bit boring lately. I miss my friends back in Kuantan so much, even I keep on seeing and hearing them around me lately. i'm just not in a good mood lately. Been thinking of quitting life for the moment, trying to escape to a new different world where I can carefree. Nice kan if you have the chance to escape life for once, go and freshen up your self and when you step back it's a brand new you.

I'll write more soon..

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Can't wait

Yeay!!!! at last after years of waiting tomorrow is the big day where HARRY POTTER will comes to the end.. I'm going with several's friends to watch it tomorrow.  Seriously can't wait!!!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

sorry seems the hardest word

I admit I did that stupid thing.. and you know what there were always a bad side of me that had being so long kept away... till I have the guts to reveal.. I know it was really a big mistakes that i shouldn't done but have you ever think about growing up without any attention when you really need it?? No right.. because I know that u have a loving family.. even you had gone through times when you can't accept something that is happening in your family.. Things between me and my mum I'm trying to patch it up and I'm back with them.. I really regret it what had happened and I'm trying hard to change.. to let go of all the grudge that I have in me.. But seriously I regret it so much.. but I know there is no need to explain my self when people already hates me.. how hard I try to explain my self, words still going to be twisted by others.. Now I just want to say thank you for being the precious someone who once step in my life... I know after this you wouldn't want to be friend with me anymore.. but yet for me you'll always be a friend to me, What had happened seriously had opened my eyes.. and made me lose all the people that I really LOVE in my life.. and I really hope that I wouldn't lose you... but seriously I'm so sorry with what i had done.. Previously I admit I always compare my self with others.. but now I knew that each and everyone are different and we have our own advantage and disadvantages... it's up to us to make the decision in choosing the path that we are going to walk in life.... and I once choose the wrong path so I've to bear with all that punishment...I regret all the things I did not do when I had the chance. I'm not an angel, I'm not a devil... I don't wish to be everything to everyone, just I admit all of it was a mistake that comes from me . It's funny because when you do something right, no one remembers. But when you do something wrong, no one forgets. If you don't like me, there’s nothing I can do. Nobody really knows how much anybody else is hurting and felt a big lost in life just because he is accepting his mistakes and try to change into someone better. Real loss only occurs when u lose something that u love more than yourself and I'm facing it now. I wish dreams were wishes & wishes came true .....

A lame new start

My new life story had just begun yesterday and I'm not all excited about it. I don't know why, maybe I started at the wrong side of life.. phewww~ but still trying to fit in. The new course is extremely though for me, can you just imagine from mass communication I took the risk to enter engineering. GAS ENGINEERING.

I meet with all the new classmates and there is no girls in my class. awwww~ no more gossips friends to be with, overall I think I'm gonna have some issue with some of them MAYBE. but seriously I'm trying to fit my self IN you ollss, just need some time perhaps..

So today I skipped my orientation, thanks to my mum and her friend. She pick me up at 10 and we went for breakfast then go straight back home. I'm going out with her this evening, don't know where she's going to bring us for dinner. owhhhh... btw, I'm not staying inside the university hostels!!! YEAY!!! so life is much easier.. every day my parents will send me to class.. huhuhu...

okay that's all for now, I'll write more when I feel like writting soon... :p

Tuesday, July 5, 2011


A week has passed by and I think I'm collecting my self back. Things that had happened in the past seriously gave a big impact on me and yet I'm still traumatized by it. I hoping that I'll be a better person in the future plus I need to work hard to get my lovelies back....

I miss them so much though...

haih~ this is what we call life, every single person that is living will make mistakes that gonna make them a better person in the future. But sometimes once we made a mistake in our life, people will forever remember your mistake. But what else can we do? It's our mistake... so just accept all the PUNISHMENT!!!

miahahaha~ That's all I want to say for now.. TC